Day 29.

I think it's safe to say that peace had been restored. Well, mostly. The time would come where it would all be resolved one way or another. She hoped it would be good news. She hoped it would all be okay again.

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It's safe to say that tonight has been the best evening of work I have done in a very long time. Not only did I laugh pretty much the whole time, I was also more accepted as part of the team. It felt as though people now recognised me as a 'proper' carer within their homes. It does take time, I know. What with getting to know the client, their family, their routines, their preferences etc. Once you have been accepted in, life becomes a lot easier. I am being given more responsibility. I am being the first carer to enter new peoples homes and it's amazing. Sounds such a trivial thing but if you're being allowed to be the first carer in, representing the company, it means you're doing alright.

I've been feeling really positive all evening. It's nice doing these extra shifts, knowing I am becoming more and more experienced. After the last two or so years in the Care industry I finally feel truly competent. I am not nervous about going in to new places or meeting new people and it has really affected my personal life. There once was a time where I couldn't walk in to any venue without someone with me; yet now I waltz in (not literally) with the confidence and presence I should have felt comfortable having years ago. It's a refreshing change to say the least.

The last few days have been weird. They've been eye opening, yes, but most definitely weird. People I don't talk to start springing up with their opinions and views about me which, quite frankly, were a little entertaining. I have a real issue with people telling me how I feel and what I think. I clearly have my own mind. If I didn't I would just be your usual mindless sheep. Baa. I have another issue with lies and manipulation. These have all been dealt with and are now ignored. I am at peace with myself nowadays and the negativity some people have to bring along is no longer wanted.

All in all it has been a fantastic day. I got to watch my period dramas in between calls, I got given a chocolate bunny, I currently have wine and all my shifts were splendid. It's amazing how work can take your mind off real life.

I am one happy bunny...possibly because I consumed the chocolate variety earlier...but still.

Life is good. Live it how you want. If you love someone, tell them. If you don't like someone, get over it. 

Hannah xox