Day 172.

It had finally arrived.

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After what has felt like a week of emotional drain after Christmas, New Years Eve has finally arrived. It's the same thing each year.

I wanted to end the year, with my blog, on a high note. I wanted to remember how much I have achieved in those 12 little months. 

I began my year in a new job. Writing every day. It was good, while it lasted. Leaving it wasn't too difficult. I blogged every day about sex, toys and products we were selling even though I didn't believe in any of them. I moved on to care work. An average job, an average company. I wasn't blown away particularly by any of it apart from a few clients. I became single at the end of July. 5 months later and I am in the happiest situation I could be. 5 months later and I am back to feeling properly like me again. No worries, no stress, no disruptions. I directed a pantomime. I made new friends. I started university. I made a plan for my future.

This year has been good to me. Of course, there are parts I'd change but overall each moment has taught me something different. I've seen a lot of people complaining about how this last year has been shit for them. Rather than moaning about it all why don't you spare a thought for all of those who have sod all year in, year out. You may have broken up with someone, lost a job or broken a nail but in whatever way you should be grateful for every day you have on this planet. I certainly am.

I've been blessed this year with new friends. Really good friends. I have also lost a lot too. Finally. There are some people in this life that I have known and lost who I haven't been fussed about losing. It's not a shame that they've gone, it's a blessing.

There will be no 'new year, new me'. All I've seen is people complaining about that phrase but I still haven't seen one of those statuses so far. There's nothing wrong with a bit of aspiration and there's nothing wrong with wanting to improve on yourself. I don't intend on starting the new year with a new me. I haven't been so happy with my life in a very long time. I don't want to change whatsoever.

I hope this new year brings you all happiness, health and harmony. I cannot thank each of you enough for going along with my ramblings over these last few months. This blog has most definitely saved me. It has been the place I can come to to release pent up emotions and frustrations without fear of being judged.

Thank you all.

Happy New Year!

Hannah xox