Day 42.

The rain couldn't dampen her spirits. Nothing could right now. It was all fitting together. Perfectly. She could feel the spark burning within her again. She had come back to life.

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Despite saying I won't get too drunk every single weekend I yet again let myself down on Friday. In all honestly, I laughed and laughed, spent time with people I love and danced my worries away. We walked home at 3:15 in the pouring rain just laughing. We also took the longest route. Foolish. My red hair dye was having a field day dripping all the way down my face, staining the back of my neck. I didn't care though. I was so happy I was spending time with her again, it could have all washed out for all I cared. We slept together, once again, and she refused to tickle my arms. Just like always. It felt as though nothing had really changed. We had just got older. We were both working. Hard. We both had completely separate lives that were joined by one beautiful thing. Friendship. The 7 years in which I'd known this girl had been phenomenal. I wanted them to continue forever and I really think they will.

I made it in to work on Saturday evening despite my sheer exhaustion. I forgot how hard it was sleeping next to her. Chatting, snoring, fidgeting. In some respect I was quite pleased to be working. For, as much as I can't be bothered to go in, at the same time, I love it whilst I am there.

Sleeping has become something of a difficulty for me lately. I don't think I am stressed so that wouldn't really explain it, although after pushing lots to the back of my mind and just gritting my teeth and getting on with it, maybe it is rearing it's head in other areas of my life. I think I am nervous to start Uni too. Enrollment is on 26th September. I genuinely can't wait. I have been saying it too much. I really can't though. The main reason I am so keen to go is to get away from Eastbourne. I moved here 5 years ago or so and the last few years I have been exposed to it's negative side or, should I say, negative people. Going out to Lewes fairly regularly will be my chance to distance myself even further from the problems, a lot easier than before. 

There is a possibility that I may have found a house share. Well, 2 opportunities really. One is located in Willingdon Trees and would be perfect for me. Cheap, nice area, close to the station. The other is with someone I vaguely know who is also in need of moving out from her current situation. To be honest, the first option seems the best. The price includes all bills which means I will have time to save up and pay off any outstanding debt, possibly get a new car then on to my own place. Who knows what will happen but either way, I am excited for whatever comes my way.

Hannah xox