Day 214.

It was all a collection of random moments thrown together to make up this memory. It was a blur of colour. A mix of sights. A whirr of noise. A life we had never planned.

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I will sadly start this with some bad news. Ultimately, for those involved but it may ring true in your life all the same. 

I have male friends. I have female friends. I have certain people who are not my friends who seem to believe they have a right to comment on my life. It's funny really. It's hilarious actually. These poor, bored individuals with nothing more to do than speculate on what I'm doing and who I'm seeing. Making things up and creating rumours to entertain themselves whilst they watch me actually live. It's sweet and I should be flattered. In fact, I am flattered. Thank you all for trying to remain in my life despite me not wanting to be anywhere near you. It's honestly a lovely gesture that you take your time to speak to others about me. For the record...I will happily spend my time with my male and female friends. I will chat with, laugh with, cuddle and care for each and every one of these people. That, however, does not mean I am 'seeing' any one of them. It is because they are my friends. If you struggle to understand that a woman can be friends with a man then you, dear, are a prat.

On a lighter note I am currently watching The Lion King. A film I haven't seen since I was a young girl. I am in the mood for Disney now. I want to watch Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast and Sleeping Beauty.

Last night I was given the amazing news that one of my best friends of 6 years wants me to be her Maid of Honour. As you can imagine my excitement is pretty hard to contain right now. I feel all grown up. I get to go wedding dress shopping, organise the hen, organise the wedding, boss the bridesmaids about. I think this is going to suit me down to a tee. I'm a happy bunny.

It's my last week of university starting tomorrow so I am looking forward to my reflexology massage on Thursday evening. 3 hours of practise with no clients coming in. These are my favourite weeks of uni. As much as I've started to enjoy it all more lately, it's nice not having clients and being banished to the other room where I sit on my own because I can't be exposed to some of the oils. It's a lonely existence! Yet one I relish in some respects. The days are long for me and my exhaustion is normally at it's peak by then so sitting in a darkened room, relaxation music on, performing very repetitive movements isn't the most inspiring to stay awake. I have caught myself actually shutting my eyes at times. Not good when you're having to massage someone. Oooops.

Guys and girls. Please assure me you're happy or doing things that make you happy. If I can change my mindset, so can you. Please don't let people get you down or make you feel crap for the way you're living your life. Please don't let the rubbish people say about you affect you. You don't have to justify yourself to anyone. Ever. Well unless you've been framed for a crime you didn't commit. 

Hannah xox